I have written this post 5 times and I still honestly don’t know quite what to say.
There is nothing inspirational in this post. There is nothing inspirational about Satan winning.
And I am angry that he has won this battle.
As beautiful as life can be at times, it can also be ugly and wicked. It is easy to get lost in it.
Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm. Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. Ephesians 6:13-17
It’s important to remember that even Christ’s soldiers fall and get lost and taken away by the cruelties of this world.
We are only human.
Once we acknowledge that we are not invincible to Satan do we accept the bulletproof vest that has been specially made for each one of us: Christ. He gets us through it all. He will get us through this.
While I was in Arizona, a pastor made this point in his sermon: if you don’t want to suffer, don’t follow Christ. The path to heaven is not easy, we are not supposed to be content with this earthly life, it is not supposed to be the Heaven we so deeply desire in our hearts.
For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:17-18
Matt wasn’t alone. He had a loving family, and he had the greatest friend group to spend his last night here on earth with him. He got big hugs and I love you man’s as he left a house full of smiling kids and memories. He was met at Heaven’s gates with an embrace, and was handed a permanent vest. The vest of eternal life.
I don’t know a lot of things. I don’t know why, I don’t know where we go from here. All I know is that Matt, you will forever be a chunky 9 year old in my mind.