something else entirely

I have written this post 5 times and I still honestly don’t know quite what to say. There is nothing inspirational in this post. There is nothing inspirational about Satan winning. And I am angry that he has won this battle. As beautiful as life can be at times, it can also be ugly and wicked. It…

fight back

We preach love. Of course we do, it seems Satanic to preach hate. But so many times do we act on the hateful fire that lies deep within us. It’s okay to admit that we, as humans, are inherently evil. We are selfish and will do just about anything to survive, and it is instinct…

like sand and stone

I believe many of the greatest gifts we receive are given to us when we least expect them. I have found that shock and overwhelming joy spreads across our faces when we stop looking for things to change our lives and we simply let things change our lives. When we finally let go and end our micromanaging do the…

battlefield

If there is anything I struggle with, it’s timing. It’s unfair and questionable and intangible and has more power over our lives than we give it credit for. Time itself is constructed by us but how time relates to our lives is something much more than construction. It’s something allusive and heartbreaking, it becomes our war…

reflection

“Look to yourself. You free. Nothing and nobody is obliged to save you but you. Seed your own land. You young and a woman and there’s serious limitation in both, but you a person too… Somewhere inside you is that free person I’m talking about. Locate her and let her do some good in the…

nothing at all

Many of my posts are meant to inspire and leave you, dear reader, with something to hold on to. But sometimes I get this feeling that I’m not being honest with you, that I’m ignoring the realities that so many of us face, that life isn’t as easy as opening up your heart, being kind and…

light

If there is one thing I have pushed myself towards this year, it’s an open mind. Each day, challenging myself to see the world with fresh eyes, to open my heart for others and to let them feel welcomed, allowing myself to open up and to empathize with those both around me and whom I’ve never…

fleeting towards the distance

I have been thinking a lot about who I am. Who I am meant to be.  I could be anything. I can be whoever I want to be and it is hard for me to wrap my mind around the idea that who I was yesterday is not who I have to be today or tomorrow….

new chapters

Moving on is never an easy thing to do. All it requires is the simple belief that you are strong and have the entire world at your fingertips. Remember that.

choose

Today, Des Moines is getting a nice, heavy rain. It’s falling with purpose, sounding very dignified, very meaningful. I live for rainy days. Rain is not depressing to me but awakens something inside of me that I do not often feel. Water is something that has always fascinated me. The way water moves, the the…

this is not the end

Lately, I have been all about accepting human nature, accepting thoughts and feelings, learning to process through them and how to use them to go about our daily lives. This may sound emotional or feminine but what else drives our choices? Surely, we all don’t go on a whim with every decision, throwing a dart while blind-folded….

the end of a golden era

I grew up swimming on the best swim team in the state of Iowa. A large part of who I am was shaped at those practices and swim meets and for that I will be forever indebted. I believe that I speak for a large portion of Central Iowa Aquatics swimmers when I say that…